The Over Achiever's Narrative Part 2

The Over Achiever's Narrative Part 2

The Power of Now. If you haven’t read this book I am urging you to.
Before my 2018 Crossfit Games Regionals I began listening to Tolle’s words on audible.


It was a revelation for me.

I learned that there is my subconscious mind or the ego: the voice in your head that is heavily conditioned by society, past experiences and fear. When you were born the ego’s main job was physical survival and since you were born this voice helped protect you and create boundaries. However, because of that the ego voice is rooted in fear.
We become burdened with thoughts about our wants, insecurities, plans, anxieties and stresses. It is the voice that thinks of the worst possible scenario, judges and criticizes. The ego loves to be right, hates being questioned and wants to be victimized.

We then have the conscious mind or the observer: this is in essence the real you- the observer of your subconscious mind, your body and your surroundings. The non-judgemental watcher.
This is a total mind fuck but if you can separate the two this will catapult you on your way to intense presence…
We have thousands of thoughts rushing into our minds everyday. We usually identify with these thoughts. I know I did. If I had sad thoughts about life, my inadequacies or what I am lacking I would feel them fully- kinda like being on a roller coaster. That would affect my state of mind, my mood, my body until those thoughts passed. If someone pissed me off or I resented a situation I was in it would affect how I interacted with the world around me. 
It would drown out my day! I was especially sensitive during my tough training. It would be very difficult for me to pull myself out of a negative spiral if I was having a bad training day...
So I pretended that I had this little Emily style Buddha sitting on the passenger side back seat of my brain car so to speak. As thoughts rushed in from my subconscious mind little Emily Buddha would simply observe those thoughts. Sometimes I would chuckle at the craziness of my thoughts. But most times I
didn’t react. I just watched them.
And for the first time in my life I created space in my head. Those thoughts that I so deeply identified with held no power. They were just thoughts spewing from my ego because my ego was just trying to protect what it thought it had to protect. Through fearful messages, through holding onto identity (I will
get into more of this later) and resisting anything or situation that challenged my identity.

This is the first step to absolute presence. Creating space in the mind through thought observation which will in turn diminish the power of the ego. Or at least give you a glimpse that there is something else beyond the voice in your head. How immensely powerful is that?
So for now, before we dive deeper down this rabbit hole, start observing your thoughts.
As Eckhart Tolle said, “The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly however, it becomes very destructible.”
Let’s begin on our journey to spiritual bad assery by recognition of the ego voice- something we work on weekly with PGF programming 

Here is a talk from Tolle to check out...

Stay weird my Psychedelic Gypsies, 

The Psychedelic Gypsy Queen 


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